There one minute, gone the next.

Things I wonder while waiting for the nurses to bring me the death notification book

Random thoughts lately

Are the things I believe about my life and the world things I truly believe; or are they just versions of the truth that I have been told by other people - my parents, social media, society? There are so many opinions I held as a younger person that I horrify me today. Beliefs about … Continue reading Random thoughts lately

ocean love

beautiful in all her forms lined up in orderly rows at sunrise turquoise gold at twilight swirling shades of cerulean below a cliff crystal clear shallows that capture the sun stormy dark powerful depths unapologetically fierce . sometimes she is soothing quieting my restless soul sometimes she is raging empowering liberating most times I want … Continue reading ocean love

I find my life full

On a Wednesday in February my cats and I listen to classical music as the sun sends long shadows across the living room floor. The air is soft. One cat stretches out on the sofa as if he has had a long day. The other stalks a fly that is hanging in the summer breeze. … Continue reading I find my life full

Capital Expenditure Deductions

I just want to sit here with the sun rosy-ing my cheeks and the wind wreaking havoc with my hairI want to climb every mountain in sightI want to swim in the ocean until my fingers turn whiteI want to swim all the way to the Ligurian Sea and back againI don’t want to read … Continue reading Capital Expenditure Deductions

How to survive an earthquake

If you can be in this world and not be overwhelmed by it Please tell me how If you can read the news and not feel the hairs on your arms stand on end If you can watch a mountain ablaze and continue making dinner If you can stare at the ocean and not feel … Continue reading How to survive an earthquake

I like

I like people of few words who only say what is necessary. I like beaches of broken sea shells, with sharp edges and hidden treasures. I like under-ripe bananas. I like unfinished paintings, and lop-sided picture frames, and books that end in the middle of a sentence. I like soft tummies. I like scars that … Continue reading I like

Thunder perhaps. Or maybe just a sunset.

I wonder if one day I will look back on this day. These days. An insignificant Monday sitting on the floor cross-legged. A bowl of vegetables in my lap. Waiting. For the sunset. Or maybe something bigger. Drinking wine from a glass that says Jess on it. As if I would mistake my glass for … Continue reading Thunder perhaps. Or maybe just a sunset.

Mountain medicine

Everyone is worried about me when I take to the mountain alone. But it is a sanctuary, a private solitude. My legs pumping. The sound of gravel crunching beneath my shoes. The wind in my hair. Salty sweat on my skin. I am fearless. I am powerful. If I ran off the edge of the … Continue reading Mountain medicine

Internal Medicine. A science or an art?

Every speciality will claim that it is the best. Surgeons will tell you that they are the most skilled. Family physicians will say that they make the most holistic difference to people's lives. Obstetricians will argue that they are responsible for two lives in one. But there is something special about Internal Medicine. It is … Continue reading Internal Medicine. A science or an art?